2, So my former boss has an icon that says "I'm not a bitch, I just play one in your life." I'm so glad that isn't true.
3, I found the one thing that's cheaper in Maryland: eye exams. Granted, the one I got in Georgia was more thorough and medically focused, but still.
4, I considered buying clothing today and didn't get depressed by it. I consider that an indicator of improving self esteem.
5, Although while I was shopping I was thinking about all the nice guys I've rejected and how they would have been so good to me and taken care of me and let me stay home with babies. (It could still happen, right?)
I love being here with my friends.
P.S. At my eye exam I had my retinas photographed and they were really cool looking. Like big bright suns. Similar to this one:

- Mood:
optimistic
2, Walked in the snowy woods today and thought of Germany.
3, That social work post I linked to yesterday has made me feel a lot more at peace with my current job/career path.
4, That social work post is also less scary today because it includes comments from social workers who are not poor.
5, I am really feeling better in general, which I do believe is due to the plan outlined below.
So, remember Olympic swimmer Dara Torres? She made this huge comeback in the 2008 Olympics, as a 41-year-old mother. From what I remember, she did it (in part) by having this regiment of massage and stretching. Obviously there was a lot of training and nutrition too. But from what I remember of the TV coverage, they thought the big reason she could perform so well at her age was because of the massage and stretching.
And in my mind that ties into the things I feel I need to be consistently doing to make my mind (and body) healthy.
Here are the things that I am now doing for my mind and body:
- pray every morning and every night
- no caffeine, no sugared sodas
- exercise (usually the elliptical; I need to do this more often)
- trying to eat more fruits and vegetables.
Future add ons
- deep breathing exercises
- fewer pre-made foods
- muscle relaxation or yoga
For optimum benefits, I should be doing the exercise, deep breathing, and muscle relaxation every day. I don't know if that's a reasonable expectation though. But then again, what's more important than taking care of myself?
Hmmmm.
- Mood:
peaceful - Music:Let It Snow, Let It Snow, Let It Snow
2, I don't know how many inches five feet is and thus I misread the Navy fitness standards to the point of putting myself 40 pounds overweight. That was unfortunate.
3, I love that Pres. Obama thought that DC shutting down for some piddly ice was silly.
4, I feel overwhelmed (I think by too many "shoulds".)
5, I don't know what hopes are realistic.
If I ever end up throwing myself a big party or marry someone with an S last name, I want this cake. In addition to the cheese sculpture, that is.
Watched the movie "Keeping up with the Steins" yesterday. It's a comedy about a boy having a Bar Mitzvah and the crazy party his parents want to throw him. The part that got me thinking was when he finally talks to the Rabbi and the Rabbi says that once you have your Bar Mitzvah, it's your duty to "repair the world." Isn't that an interesting concept? Repair the world. What messed up the world? (Not arguing that it is messed up.) It makes me want to be a Jew. I think repairing the world is a fabulously worthy mission. Not that one would need to be a Jew to do that. But still. It would be nice to have the support of an entire people in that mission.
Also, how sad is it that I majored in Jews, but I'm just now hearing this concept from a comedy movie?
Watched part of the movie "Hairspray" today. It was kind of sad to me that the neighborhoods that were all happy in, ummm, whatever decade the movie was set in, are now nasty drug and crime ridden neighborhoods. Or at least really poor.
Regarding Germany's win over Turkey, it may have been a blessing in disguise for the Turks in Germany. I was talking with Lisl about it, and I think if Turkey would have won, a number of Turks in Germany would have been seriously hurt or even killed in rioting.
Fort G is having a "soldier show" tonight and tomorrow. I was so amused. I imagined it like a fashion show where different soldiers parade themselves across the stage and show off their muscles and stuff. I'm pretty sure that's not what it actually is though. Not that I know what it actually is. Some sort of variety show perhaps? There are two large trucks with "Army Entertainment" written on them parked in front of the building. I could see this being a nice morale booster in Iraq, but in Georgia? Please. I guess it's a nice free date, maybe? I wonder if there was free child care?
I was looking at Jenny's booklet on free flights today and it *almost* made me want to join the military. Or better yet, marry someone in it. Then you get the benefits without having to have idiots scream at you. *sigh* I wonder if the new GI bill benefits can be passed on to family members? That would be SO worth it!!
Oh, and one more thing: At dinner tonight the cash register guy asked me if I was in AIT (Army's "Advanced Individual Training" where they go after bootcamp (although bootcamp is called something else in the army. I said "bootcamp" to some Army people the other day and they got really confused.)) anyway, this guy asks me if i'm in AIT and I want to be like, "Do I look 19?"
Also, also, I found the cutest cookie cutter neighborhood today! It's called Magnolia Glen. Of course the houses are way close together like in any new development, but they're SO CUTE! If I had to live in a cookie cutter neighborhood, I would choose this one.
Also, also, also, Mini Me's name is Vern Troyer?!?!!? Is he formerly Amish???????????
- Music:Shwazy
2, I just read this post and it made so much sense to me. The author worked on a cruise ship and then when he got back to land living, he was totally overwhelmed. He talks about how on the ship everyone has a definite purpose and everything is orchestrated. On land it's chaos. It really reminds me of what happened to me once I left high school. Seriously. That's when I had to start making decisions and going crazy in the head. So maybe I should go live on a boat, ha ha ha. I would hate that. A kibbutz would be much better and hopefully have the same effect. Or even, God help me, the military.
3, So next time I decide to watch half of GI Jane, remind me to watch the first half. The second half sort of sucks.
4, On House Hunters today there was a detatched condo. Meaning, a house. Umm, yeah.
5, ugh
2, Last night I had a sports dream. I dreamed that I was a freshman (HS? College?) and I was going out for the basketball team. I made it, but I ended up being the only white girl on the team. It was right before our first game and I was so nervous, because I was starting, but I wasn't really that good. (My basketball skills hadn't improved from reality in this dream.) The coach took me aside before the game and explained that I was going to be heckled for being white. They were going to chant something like, "Go to Harvard." Weird.
3, Great new show by Carson Kressley, "How to look good naked." It's not really what it sounds like. Carson takes women who are unhappy with their bodies and shows them that they are beautiful. It's uplifting and inspiring. I suggest every woman watch it.
4, I actually went and looked at cat stuff today.
5, The Blister is worrisome. It dried out and the new skin cracked. I've been puting Neosporin on it so it doesn't get infected, but I'm afraid that running on it is going to split it open further. Hope it heals up by Tuesday afternoon!
- Mood:
blah
2, I went to my very first Intern Happy Hour yesterday. It was combined with a going away party for one of the interns. I was afraid of not knowing anyone. I knew everyone. Because there were only 4 other people there. Including the guy who was going away. I felt bad for him.
3, There are ants in my laundry room. Why are there ants in my laundry room? There's nothing for them to eat in there!
4, I ate at a German restaurant tonight. It was amazing. I was craving a German salad and I was actually able to get a decent one. I would have liked to have carrots and those white beans in it, but it was great anyway. Then I had Sauerbraten and Spaetzele. Sooooo good. I needed it. It fed my soul.
5, I got all domestic and made a from-scratch pumpkin cake this week. I even decorated it with a spiral design.
- Mood:
content - Music:Here I go again on my own
Here's the random future thought I had today: Study Yiddish and Pennsylvania Dutch. Actual purpose and usefulness of this to be determined.
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I'm currently watching this Lifetime movie "Aurora Borealis." It's about a girl and guy getting together, of course. And they're my age. In Minneapolis. And they take care of grandparents. It's going to make my heart hurt, I know it. And it's on til 11, so I'll be sleepy tomorrow. Awesome.
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The third thing. I don't know if I can talk about the third thing. I just want to put it out of my mind. So basically, I found this guy on Craig's List, emailed with him a little and then we went to this cafe on Sunday. I felt pretty "meh" about the whole thing. Laura told me I should go for practice. So we were there and talked and stuff for 2 and a half hours. It was fine and not boring and I didn't wish I were at home. But I wasn't like "Yay, we must do this again." So then today I get this whole gushy email from the guy. Technically it was very flattering, but I just want to crawl into a hole. This is yet another reason I don't date. I hate rejecting people!
I need to go now.
- Mood:
anxious - Music:Get Ready (Sublime)
2, I feel like driving, getting out of town, away from everything.
3, I'd like to make my table, but I don't have a wrench.
4, Lovely Big Ten collages on the way!
5, I need to not devalue myself.
- Music:I got 5 on it
1, The NCAA trophies look the same for DI as for DIII. That is so awesome! I am so happy that they're equal opportunity like that.
2, In preparation for my tooth extraction, I bought apple sauce, baby food, and Kosher for Passover noodle pudding. Mmmm.
3, There is a wedding dress hanging in my spare room. Ahhhhh
4, For Easter I will be working through four chapters of "Behavioral Statistics in Action". Oh yeah.
5, Potential... Hmm...
- Mood:
content - Music:God is a DJ, life is a dance floor
2, One of my headlights is out. Can I change that myself?
3, Soccer practice tomorrow.
4, I've determined that caffiene is my drug of choice, which is very convenient.
5, If pre-dating disturbs me this much, how will I deal with dating?
- Mood:
tired
